Tuesday, January 3, 2012

13 Weeks Ago...

I was packing my bag to go to the hospital to have a c-section for the new baby.

I was packing the baby goodies.

I picked out a cute outfit to wear with my RED shoes.  

I packed a Sonlight read aloud from our home schooling 'to do'  list because I had visions of all of us snuggled up with the new baby finishing our weeks' reading.  (bbbbwwwwhhhhaaaaahhhhhaaaaahhhhhaaaaa)

I cooked some meals for the fridge and freezer.

I was feeling confident in our ability to bring in baby number 4 albeit nervous about the actual surgery - boy did I have that backwards.

I was expecting to party in the hospital room.

I was giddy.

I'm not feeling that way so much this time.   

I'm packing a bag to take to the hospital to hand over our youngest child to a surgeon.

I'm packing fuzzy socks and only jammies with snaps all the way up the body because she will have tubes, wires, and major tenderness that will limit what she can wear.

I'm uploading some music to be able to play while in the hospital although I doubt I'll listen to ANY of it.

I'm packing my Kindle to keep from going crazy waiting and watching.  I doubt I'll even open it.

I'm having the kids pick out a goodie each for Charlotte.  Riley will pick one of his little jingle bugs he bought her for Christmas and the girls get to pick out a soft blanket each to send with her.

I'm trying to remember to make some food for my family to eat while I'm at the hospital and not on duty at home.

I'm eating stupid amounts of chocolate to try and distract my mind.  It's NOT working. 

I'm starting a blog where my words, heart and mind will collide.  I hope no one has a teacher pen on them. 

Alan and I have had to have hard conversations with our other kids to prepare them for the best case scenario and the worst.  (LIKE THAT WORKS....)

At 13 weeks of age, almost to the MINUTE, they will start the surgery to mend her heart physically. 

I'm praying like crazy.


  1. Praying for you, for Charlotte, for the kids, for Alan, the doctors, nurses, and anyone else that is involved with your family while you go through this day....and the days to come! Praying...praying...praying!

  2. And we are praying right along with you, Faith! :)

  3. Praying like crazy, Faith. I love you, and I'm so proud of you guys. I feel honored to call you a sister. Dana

  4. Faith, You are in God's hands, Charlotte is in God's hands! I won't quit praying for you today!

  5. We are on Team Hayes, and praying BIG with you.

  6. My secret "code" word thingy to get my previous comment to publish started with "royal". :) We are children of the King. You are children of the King. The King loves Charlotte Joy.

  7. Oh Faith! I had almost the same experience, delivering number 4 (having packed for a week's bonding and "vacation") by scheduled c-section 7 months ago and learning she had rare birth defect, including a second bladder on the outside of her body. It has been a time of many ups and downs, two surgeries, another coming soon, and more later. Hang in there. I will pray for you and that beautiful baby!

  8. You are not alone in your prayers or your love for that sweet girl of yours.

  9. Praying for Charlotte..and for your family...

  10. Love, hugs and prayers are being sent your way today.

  11. Praying for you and your precious little girl.

  12. Praying that all the surrounding details of home-life will work themselves out as you tend to Charlotte. Praying for you!!

  13. Keep breathing, Faith. We will pray you through this. And Charlotte will feel and look so much better when it's done. (((Hugs))) and prayers continuing...